Crush

[liquidtears]

Title: Crush
Pairing: None
Summary: just a drabble I came up with as we (my dad and I) were driving home from Chinese food takeout, as this song came on the radio.
Song: Crush by Jennifer Paige.
Note1: special shoutout to a website I co-own with a friend of mine. You'll see which one it is.
Note2: Not real, just pure fiction.
Feedback: Is much appreciated.
Warning: Deathfic / Suicidefic


I came home from work. I was content; I had made a lot of money refilling people cartridges, even my boss was happy about the state of my store. Why didn't I feel happy myself? Because I had a crush on someone I could never meet, would never meet, because I could never tell her how I really feel.

I turned on the radio as I situated myself behind my laptop that was always waiting on my desk in my bedroom.

Lots of songs were sung on the radio while I browsed my favorite websites.

I was going to prepare dinner in a little bit. I just wanted to go through one more website.

I clicked the link in my favorites, which was http://www.lauravandervoort.org and that is when I saw the headline on the Internet. I wanted to close the page... and then that one song came on the radio. 

Instead of doing so, I lay down on my bed as I listened to this song, my last song I would ever hear.

Ahh, crush, ahhh

I see ya blowin' me a kiss
It doesn't take a scientist
To understand what's going on baby
If you see something in my eye
Let's not over-analyze
Don't go too deep with it baby

So let it be, what it'll be
Don't make a fuss and get crazy over you and me
Here's what I'll do
I'll play loose
not like we have a date with destiny

It's just (aah) a little crush (crush)
Not like I faint every time we touch
It's just (aah) some little thing (crush)
Not like everything I do, depends on you
Sha-la-la-la, Sha-la-la-la

My right hand reached for the nightstand drawer and retrieved an object I had hidden there, while the tears flowed from my two eyes. The song continued as I stripped open my shirt...

It's raising my adrenaline
You're banging on a heart of tin
Please don't make too much of it baby
Say the word "forevermore"
That's not what I'm looking for
All I can commit to is "maybe"

So let it be what it'll be
Don't make a fuss and get crazy over you and me
Here's what I'll do
I'll play loose
Not like we have a date with destiny

It's just (aah) a little crush (crush)
Not like I faint every time we touch
It's just (aah) some little thing (crush)
Not like everything I do depends on you
Sha-la-la-la, Sha-la-la-la

Vanilla skies (vanilla skies)
White picket fences in your eyes
A vision of you and me(you and me)

It's just (aah) a little crush (crush)
Not like I faint every time we touch
It's just (aah) some little thing (crush)
Not like everything I do depends on you
Sha-la-la-la
Not like I faint every time we touch
It's just (aah) some little thing
Not like everything I do depends on you
Sha-la-la-la Sha-la-la-la,
ahh crush
Sha-la-la-la, Sha-la-la-la
Sha-la-la-la, Sha-la-la-la

The song was about to end when I unleashed the carving with the silver knife I had retrieved from my bedside drawer.

I bit my bottom lip to prevent myself from crying out as I carved her name on my body while the tears flowed from my eyes.

I didn't care anymore, not after that exclusive news I found on the website me and my buddy maintained together with another friend of ours.

I pretended not to feel the blood that seeped from my many carvings,  only to drip from the created wounds onto the bed.

Why did I do it?

Because of the according to the world 'breaking news' on the website.

Supergirl actress engaged with longtime boyfriend.