Jar of Liquid Tears

 Day 15

Talk about why you participated in Snowflake &/or what you got out of it. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

I think my girlfriend participated in it last year and this year I was like huh, I'd love to give it a go , and therefore I did it. 




Some entries were later than the day they came out, but hey, I persevered and stuck with it until the end. 

I think the main reason was to make more friends, because I am super-insecure as a writer and mostly it's just my girlfriend and a good friend of mine commenting on my fics, which sometimes make me think 'is that all I can? Get 2 comments and that's it?

I'm also on AO3 but there it is mostly getting Kudos (mostly Guests) 

I had a fic called Shower Buddies in the 13 Reasons Why Fandom which got a really bad review, and a lot of times I'm thinking when I see a Kudo on a fic what were the good parts? were there bad parts? did that person see room for improvement?

I've recently friended an amazing Supernatural Fan on LJ and so I'm curious what they thought of the fics I wrote for that fandom and some RPF ones, but I've yet to get a comment on those which continue to make me insecure if I should continue writing in general.

I'm also thankful for the 3 Sentence Ficathon which made me get out of my shell more and write in other fandom than I always do. 

*Insert Porky Pig Voice: Bbbbbbbbbb That's All Folks!*

Until Next Year!

(Now in NO WAY am I turning the lights out on DW only to continue on LJ again.)

 Day 13

In your own space, set some goals for the coming year. They can be fannish or not, public or private. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

I'm going to try and not lose my patience so much with my pop-up obsessed laptop. Some pop-ups are fine and don't get me rattled so much but when one pops up with a "You've got a virus!" I don't know how fast I click that X in the top right corner and get really irritated I could open the string of curses that spill across my tongue. 

Most important one is finally meet my longtime online girlfriend in the flash/flesh. 

Hopefully continue some old fics and actually finish them. 

Meet some other fans in real life, hopefully go to conventions. 

Try out Cosplay.

Move away from my parents into my own apartment… again. Many years ago I had that after I graduated for my exams in 2002, then went to Granada for 5 months on my own to learn Spanish (1 October 2002 - 21 December 2002 to celebrate Christmas at home and then 1 February 2003 until 28 March 2003) and after that I had my own apartment below a classmate of mine. Even though I knew her it still got way too lonely and then before long I was living back home at my parents until we've moved to a new house now somewhat 5 years ago and have been staying with them ever since. 

Another important one: GET A NEW JOB! 

I had to close down my store I had worked at for 8 years on 31st May 2018 because of disappointing sales, struggling to get customers to come into the store because they'd rather order greeting cards and ink cartridges online than go find a store where they could buy that. I've been trying to find work ever since. Hoping that this month will finally be the month I'll finally find something I love doing. 

Day 11

In your own space, talk about your creative process(es) — anything from the initial inspiration to how you feel after something’s done. Do you struggle with motivation or is it a smooth process? Do you have any tricks up your sleeve to pull out when a fanwork isn’t cooperating? What is your level of planning to pantsing/winging it? Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.





Most inspiration come from dreams and sometimes reading a tweet of a certain female celebrity. I'll give an example. "You're still my scar." which gave me inspiration to write not just a one-shot but a two-shot of The Never Healing Scar which can be found here at my other journal the RPF one. 

Another inspiration is with same female actress a picture of a photoshoot. On that picture she's looking off to the side, like she's heard a sound coming from the nearby bushes, not because the photographer told her to, which led to the creation of the fic "The Cursed Wolf" which can also be found at that same journal under the tag the cursed wolf. 

Some times it's a smooth process and some other times it can be a real struggle. Another example is a story called Forbidden Love: A Vampire Slayer (male) and a Vampire (female) are living right next door to each other, they fall in love against their family's objections. I even had a whole Mirror World plot where the roles are reversed (she's a Vampire Slayer, he's an evil Vampire wreaking havoc in that Mirror World) but for some reason that fanfic Mirror World plot just didn't come to fruition and like many fanfics I abandoned it altogether… until a complete reboot where the same Vampire Slayer is still the same guy, but hasn't seen that female Vampire in years but is summoned by a Werewolf Family to witness the renewal of a Treaty between the Werewolves (Think Teen Wolf but with a daughter named Melissa who is exactly Melissa Benoist and Scott being the Werewolf King/Alpha) and the Vampires (The Originals!) which I also abandoned. It's getting harder and harder for me to actually start a series AND then completely finish it... unlike say the Goddess and Her Follower which is also on the other Journal and started out at the ending and ended at the beginning/birth of the follower.  

I don't really know if I have tricks up my sleeve when a fanwork isn't cooperating. If they don't, I think I just drop the idea altogether. 

The current one that I'm doing is a Kingdom Hearts fic which came to me a dream like literally last night. 

 Day 9

Commit an Act of Kindness. In your own space, share what you’ve done, talk about what you’ve done, or simply leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.

This is funny because I recently (Monday) did an act of kindness. I had these coupons for KFC and I had full intention on going but decided I wasn’t in the end so I stopped a random stranger the nearest one I could find and asked if that person would like all the coupons and that person was so happy with it that he could finally try out those Popcorn Chicken things on their menu! 

 Day 7